Worry

Lately I have been allowing my worries to take over...I have "quit" seminary in my head at least twice a week for the past month.  I have convinced myself that it is not going to work, and I have struggled with why God has given me this call if it's not going to work.  In my heart, I know it will work out.  Yes, a few wrinkles need to be ironed out...some of which will not be ironed out until this summer.  But IT WILL WORK OUT!!!  I know I need to be patient (not my strongest point), and I need to have faith.  Tonight after the kids fell asleep, I quickly cleaned the kitchen.  My reward was 15 minutes of quiet with my Bible and God.  I prayed that God would give me a message....speak some sort of wisdom into my heart.  Ask and ye shall receive!  I opened my Bible to Matthew 6:25 and read, "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear..."  I continued on and read Matthew 6:27, "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"  I read those exact words, but what I heard was, "KOREN, STOP WORRYING ABOUT WHAT YOU CANNOT CONTROL!  YOU ARE WASTING ENERGY!"  (Not mention driving everyone I know crazy!)  Yep, I asked and I received.

So now what am I going to do about it?  Well, here's the funny thing.  God has such a great sense of humor.  Earlier tonight, while rocking my little guy to sleep, I was online on my Nook reader.  I accidentally hit a wrong button and ended up on the site for a Bible study I had stopped doing about 3 weeks ago because I had fallen behind.  The Bible study is called "Stressed Less Living."  You can stop laughing now.  I had quit because I was stressed out at the fact that I couldn't keep up.  But the page popped up before I could change it, and the caption for today's blog caught my eye..."A Personal Note for the Stressed-Out and Fallen Behind Gals".  I kid you not!  I read on..."OK Ladies, here’s the deal – Many of you have told me you are behind on your reading and STRESSED over it! Let’s stop right there…… Here’s what I want you to do ~ pick up at chapter 5. You can go back and read the previous chapters later – DO NOT STRESS over it. This study is to help us be STRESSED-LESS not STRESSED-OUT."  

So I am going to stop stressing, head upstairs, snuggle up in bed, and pick up at Chapter 5.  And I am going to work really hard at putting my worries aside this week.  All I can do is my best.  I need to turn my focus to God and let God take care of the details.  I haven't been let down yet.