Sunday, May 12, 2013

Worry

Lately I have been allowing my worries to take over...I have "quit" seminary in my head at least twice a week for the past month.  I have convinced myself that it is not going to work, and I have struggled with why God has given me this call if it's not going to work.  In my heart, I know it will work out.  Yes, a few wrinkles need to be ironed out...some of which will not be ironed out until this summer.  But IT WILL WORK OUT!!!  I know I need to be patient (not my strongest point), and I need to have faith.  Tonight after the kids fell asleep, I quickly cleaned the kitchen.  My reward was 15 minutes of quiet with my Bible and God.  I prayed that God would give me a message....speak some sort of wisdom into my heart.  Ask and ye shall receive!  I opened my Bible to Matthew 6:25 and read, "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear..."  I continued on and read Matthew 6:27, "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"  I read those exact words, but what I heard was, "KOREN, STOP WORRYING ABOUT WHAT YOU CANNOT CONTROL!  YOU ARE WASTING ENERGY!"  (Not mention driving everyone I know crazy!)  Yep, I asked and I received.

So now what am I going to do about it?  Well, here's the funny thing.  God has such a great sense of humor.  Earlier tonight, while rocking my little guy to sleep, I was online on my Nook reader.  I accidentally hit a wrong button and ended up on the site for a Bible study I had stopped doing about 3 weeks ago because I had fallen behind.  The Bible study is called "Stressed Less Living."  You can stop laughing now.  I had quit because I was stressed out at the fact that I couldn't keep up.  But the page popped up before I could change it, and the caption for today's blog caught my eye..."A Personal Note for the Stressed-Out and Fallen Behind Gals".  I kid you not!  I read on..."OK Ladies, here’s the deal – Many of you have told me you are behind on your reading and STRESSED over it! Let’s stop right there…… Here’s what I want you to do ~ pick up at chapter 5. You can go back and read the previous chapters later – DO NOT STRESS over it. This study is to help us be STRESSED-LESS not STRESSED-OUT."  

So I am going to stop stressing, head upstairs, snuggle up in bed, and pick up at Chapter 5.  And I am going to work really hard at putting my worries aside this week.  All I can do is my best.  I need to turn my focus to God and let God take care of the details.  I haven't been let down yet.

2 comments:

  1. Sounds like a Bible Study I need to be doing!! What site are you using?

    And that was kind of hilarious. :)

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing so much of yourself with everyone!!!

    You are not alone in these struggles -- both that we are here to support you in any and all ways we can and in that we have all been there in our own journys.

    Hang in there. You have so many beautiful gifts. I know that your journey will unfold beautifully too ... that doesn't mean it will always be easy of course (OH I wish) ... Hope to get to really talk and hang out soon!

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